Well life has been going alright. I dont sit and think about Bill missing out on Jessi anymore. If he wants to see her he knows where we are. I have been doing alot of great stuff with Jes this year. We went to Balloonfest with Aunt Steffie and Uncle Eugene. She loved it. We had to go twice tho to see the balloons lift off. But it was fun. I had a great job working 60 hrs a week and I managed to fuck that up. I hated the job so it didnt bother me much, we just miss the money. I am goin back to work to take care of the elderly lady that was taking care of last year. She is a great lil old lady. And its great money. And its a job that I ABSOLUTELY love. I cant wait to get back into that line of work. I hope that I can get a full time position again with this company. DAMN I had so much to say and now I cant even think of anything to say. I guess if I remember I will be back to update again. 


Love you all!

Mood: GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRR
Why are men assholes? Jessicas dad hasnt returned any of my phone calls since the 27th. How lame is that? But OH WELL! Its his loss not mine or hers. He is the one that missed her 1st steps her 1st words and her 1st tooth. Basically her 1st everything.  I have friends that know more about his daughter than he does. How sad is that? But we dont need that in our lives. I really dont have much to update about anymore. I am turning into a lame ass! HAHA! On Thursday my cousin is in a Kareoke(sp) contest so I am gonna go and cheer her on. Hopefully I can get a few more people to go with us. That way she has a good cheering section. She is a great singer and all but we want her to win so we gotta have that cheering section. HAHA!  Well I am off here I will talk to everyone soon!~ MWA~

[ ] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[ ] Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[x] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of choking.
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[x] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[ ] Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[x] Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

B
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Belonephobia - Fear of pins and needles.
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

C
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[ ] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[x] Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[x] Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[ ] Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[ ] Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

D
[ ] Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ] Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ] Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[ ] Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

E
[ ] Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[ ] Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[x] Entomophobia - Fear of insects.
[ ] Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ] Equinophobia - Fear of horses.

F
[ ] Flo-Beephobia - Fear of vacuum cleaners.

G
[ ] Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[ ] Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[ ] Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[ ] Gynophobia - Fear of women.

H
[ ] Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ] Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[ ] Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[ ] Homophobia- Fear of homosexuals
[ ] Hydrophobia - Fear of water.

I
[ ] Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.

K
[ ] Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

L
[ ] Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ] Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[ ] Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

M
[ ] Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ] Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[ ] Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ] Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

N
[ ] Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[ ] Noctiphobia - Fear of the night
[ ] Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.

O
[ ] Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[ ] Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[ ] Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[x] Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[ ] Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.
[ ] Ostroconaphobia - Fear of seafood.

P
[ ] Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[ ] Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ] Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ] Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ] Phobophobia - Fear of phobias.
[ ] Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[ ] Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[ ] Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[x] Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

S
[ ] Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ] Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[ ] Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ] Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

T
[ ] Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[ ] Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ] Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[ ] Trypanophobia - Fear of injections.
[ ] Tryscadectaphobia- Fear of the number 13.

V
[ ] Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ] Verminophobia - Fear of germs.

W
[ ] Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.

X
[ ] Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners.

Z
[ ] Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

Well Bill is being the lame ass loser that I know he is. He is denying Jessica now. That lil girl looks just like him but he wouldnt know cause he hasnt seen her in 6 fucking months. But oh well He is being hit with that child support order and he can fight it all he wants and do a DNA test. Its gonna prove that he is a fucking loser and that he is the father of her. I really wish I had cheated on him and gotten knocked up by someone else. Maybe they would be there for her and help me take care of her unlike him.

Mood: excited ;)

Well this weekend sucked ass! I had a REALLY bad day on Friday and then when I got home I was told that me and a friend needed to have a talk. I asked if I should be worried he said no. So I was like alright, well I should have been worried. :(  Then on Saturday night we had the more in depth talk and it all sucked ass. But we are doin alright I guess. I am still talking to him and we are still making plans so that is a good thing. I guess it could be alot worse. I could never just stop talking to him. I have way to many feelings for him to do that. And I have since the day I met him. And that was over a year ago. Jes has been sleeping alot better. She only woke up fussing 2 times last night. I eventually had to put her in bed with me to get her to sleep so that I could get a few hours of sleep. I am running on like 2 hours of sleep cause I was on the phone till 4 am this morning. I am actually in a fairly good mood too. Suprise suprise huh?? I had a great phone call last night so I am just happy today. I cant wait to get my GED. I will be walking in June. My 1st test is Feb 28th. YAY!!! I have to write an essay today for class tomorrow night. I took the reading and writing pretests last night and I found out that I am a better writer than I am a reader. Go figure. The teacher said its cause I like to talk haha! and boy do I like to talk. Well I am off here to write my essay and to make some cold calls. Talk to everyone later.

Love~

Angela Maria

Mood: PISSED!!!

OH DEAR LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Today so totally sucks!! Its only 9:30 and I am ready to just leave. I hate being in this fucking place. I warned everyone that I am not doin good today and the stupid bitch starts in on me. FUCK YOU BITCH!!!! I will fucking leave and go home if this shit keeps up. I am depressed and I am having some health issues right now. I am goin to the dr next friday and hopefully we can get all of this stuff taken care of. I need to talk to someone and see if they can help me deal with all this shit. I have someone that I talk to now but he isnt always gonna be able to talk just cause I am having a bad day. I mean he has a life also and problems of his own.

Miss Jessica was being a pain in the ass last night. She woke up at like 2 am and Michelle and I both tryed to calm her and we couldnt. Tim came out and tryed to calm her and wasnt able to. He finally took her in his room and let her sleep in his bed with him and she calmed down and went to sleep. I hate the nights where I cant calm her and the only one that can is Tim. It makes me feel so bad that she needs a man and there isnt one there that can take care of her.

Bill~ I fucking hate you for what you have done to Jessica and I. You are a selfish fucking bastard!!! You think only of yourself and not the 2 kids that you are hurting. You have fucking dropped off the face of the earth and I am glad! I dont want you around me or MY kids. They deserve someone better than you. Someone who will be there for them and that will love them and care for them. Not someone who is gonna walk away from them and NEVER look back. You feel that pussy is more important than your kids. Just remember Bill she is a fucking child molester. And if she has done it once she will fucking do it again. I agree that people deserve second chances but not when they are child molesters and have kids of their of their own. They dont deserve anything!!!!

That didnt even make me feel better!!!

Its now 2:50 and I feel a lil better but not much. I am still pissy but I finally got to talk to my crush and he just makes me happy. All I have to do is hear his voice and I am smiling. :)) Im a dork I know haha!

Mood: blah, Music: Promiscuous

Well life has been goin real good as of late. We have ordered our tickets to go see Jerry Springer. HAHA!!! That is gonna be the end of Feb. Its gonna be fun. There will be like 16 of us going. I cant wait. I recieved my W-2 yesterday. I will be filing my taxes within the next couple days and then I can plan for my vacation. YAY!!! I made a comment to him about him not wanting me to go and he said I am going, so he obviously wants me there. YAY!!! I cant wait. If all goes well maybe I will be making more frequent trips out there. I miss talking to him as much as I was before but I guess until my unlimited minutes start I am stuck with only talking to him a lil here and a lil there. But its all good. I really like him and I have told him how I feel. He has told me a lil bit about how he feels, and I understand that he doesnt want to rush anything cause he has been hurt ALOT in the past. As have I. I have had feelings for him for a LONG time now and I just got the nerve to tell him about them. I have finally said fuck everyone I am gonna stop hiding how I feel. If anyone has a problem with who I want to be with FUCK OFF!!!!! Well I am off here to do some looking around then I am off to a few appointments. ~hugs~

Mood: antsy, Music: Far Away Nickelback
Well everything has been goin ok. I am really missing a certain someone today. It really sucks. I cant wait to go see him. Well I have to move on to a shitty topic now. :( I havent heard anything from Bills mom about the kids in I dont know how long. And for x-mas she bought something for Jes but not Kay. How fucked up is that??? I left her some offlines telling her NOT to buy ANYTHING for Jes anymore. I think that is only fair. She can buy for the other lil one but not just one of mine. I think that is just wrong. Well I am off here and back to my other site.

Well I took Jes to the Dr on Wednesday night and she is really sick again. It really sucks that she got sick. We were doin so good with her being healthy. She has double ear infections in both ears and a bad cough and sore throat and ucky nose. I may be taking a vacation around tax time. That is if this person still wants to see me. I really enjoy talking to him. Hes a great guy and great friend. I dont know what I am doin this weekend but I hope it involves relaxing. I havent had much sleep this week cause I have been on the phone till all hours of the night. Its all good though I enjoy talking to him so I cant complain. And he is really good about asking if I want to go to bed. But of course I always say NO. HAHA. Well I am off to my other site for awile. I hope to talk to everyone soon.

~~Angie~~

Mood: girly mood hehe

Well I have taken a liking to a guy! YAY me! I know my personal life has been hell this past couple months but I actually really like this guy. He is sweet, kind, caring, thoughtful of how I feel, and just really great! He makes me fell good about telling people how I feel. We have had long talks about my feelings for him and as of right now we are gonna remain friends and see where it goes from there. I hope thigs turn out ok in the end. And if we only remain friends then atleast I get that much from him. Well I am off here to do some job searching. Talk to everyone later.

~~Angie~~