Not a very good update but a update

How much can a person take without coming to the point of breaking down and not turning around?

That is a question that I would like to have an answer to. Because now dad is back on the ventilator.

Wait a minute let me rewind and tell you what is going on.

We treked to the hospital which is about an hour and a half each way from home to see dad and we only have certain hours we can see him so we chose the 5 pm- 7 pm hours to go because its later but not too late and we can get back home by 8:30.

So we go back to see him at 5 pm and the curtain is closed. I ask what is going on and they said oh the nurse is just changing the bed. So we was like okay.

Well about 5 minutes later the nurse comes out and tells us that they had to put dad back on the ventilator because he got confused and got out of bed all the while pulling his central line (IV) out of his neck. Well the nurses got him back in to bed and he said he felt funny and his eyes rolled back in his head and he just like went unconcious. So the hospital decided it would be best to put the ventilator back on him since he wasnt breathing very good.

So then they proceided to tell us that they took a bunch of tests. And he is sedated so we couldnt do anything but sit there watching him with our breaking hearts.

Well when the doctor came in to tell us exactly what had happened he woke up and was moving his right leg and shaking the right rail of the bed with his right hand. He wasnt moving hardly anything on his left side. They are now telling us it could have been a stroke. I am hoping that he wont be paralized :(

I dont know how much the man can take. 2 surgeries, 8 chest tubes, and more later. At the time he is on the ventilator, has 4 chest tubes, a tube going down his nose draining his stomach, and of course his IVs.

I dont think mom can take too much more without breaking. I feel sorry for her because I cant do anything for her. But I know I have to be strong for her because I am her strong place.

This is so hard on us being so far away from the hospital.

I am hoping he gets better and not worse.

All I can do is pray *sigh*

I just want to scream.

I am hurting so bad.

That is my daddy he is suppose to be strong and not so frail looking....